Photo Journal #3: A Time of Possibility


I would like to announce that my summer holidays have begun! Okay, so there will still be catch ups of academic work to be done for my teaching certificate, but not the day to day grind of writing schemes of work and planning for lessons to a strict regime. And then there’s my classroom supervisor job at the tutoring scheme which still runs over the summer holidays. But still, seven weeks stretch out ahead of me full of glorious possibility.


Since March, I have been enjoying the discipline of writing and posting a poem each week for Poets United Midweek Prompt. This followed a long period of silence from my poet’s voice and a deep retreat into journalling. It seems that changing course and deciding to train as a teacher has helped me to get more balance in my life, especially as I am training part time and have more flexibility in my schedule.


I’ve been reflecting about how I have never hidden from myself more than when I was working a full time administrative job (the work I was doing immediately before I started teacher training). By the end of the working day there was nothing left: I was lost to myself. My inner spirit was an abused dog who wouldn’t come out from behind the sofa, scared that she’d get another inexplicable beating. Throughout the evening and then night, I’d slowly become renewed with rest, journalling, prayer and sleep. But then I’d be up and out of the house at 7am the next morning and have to squander myself on the same old routine all over again. I had also developed a horrendous caffeine habit that contributed to me feeling constantly drained. It has taken me many years to admit that I am too sensitive to dabble in caffeine!


So, now I’ve had another taste of creative freedom I must stand firm not to slide back. I know it means finding a way to continue to be employed ‘on the outside’ only in a part time capacity. I know for certain that a full time teaching job is no more forgiving than full time administrative work. But matching who I am on the inside with what I do on the outside is the continued goal. Now that this summer is stretching out before me I feel it is the time to be laying down the roots of the creative year to come ~ the beautiful discipline of daily photographs and a weekly poem, a blog post checking in where I am creatively, two longer stories to write that have been percolating for a month or so, compiling the poems so far into a chapbook, lazy nesting into my home and home life so it is a well oiled machine of inspiration and reflection…

11140396_10152932855520846_3677132130223355747_n…ahhhh, summer ~ I’m coming for you!


8 thoughts on “Photo Journal #3: A Time of Possibility

  1. Right on the money, Claire – I just nodded along with EVERYTHING in your third paragraph. Having done both full time teaching and full time admin, I can confirm that they can be equally unforgiving to sensitive types. But teaching, at least, has the possible redeeming factor of connecting with people and making a difference (if you luck in with a good group of students).

    Hope you’re enjoying your hols!


    • Hey Lola ~ the advantage of part time teaching is it pays close to three times the amount of my admin role too, so makes part time a possibility. As for the right students, I am training in post 16 and hope to be working with adult groups, I don’t foresee a life in secondary school again (that’s where I was an administrator…) thanks for your lovely words 💜


  2. I completely relate to taking time to accept sensitivities to certain things & a huge YES to matching what we do on the inside to who we are in the inside! Enjoy your new found freedom and exploring your creativity. I look forward to reading more blog posts x


  3. What a wonderful post and here here to a part time work! So great you’ve been called to teach, maybe it will somehow be a match of your inner world to your outer world? Of how you will inspire others to create? Methinks many people will be feeling similar, having experienced how the day job, the 9-5 can diminish us sometimes. Wishing you a wonderful summer of creativity and discovery. xox


    • Aww, thanks lovely Dal! I wish the same for you too 🙂 I am happy now to admit that 9-5 is not a good fit for me, without feeling a twinge of inadequacy…


  4. This sounds absolutely wonderful. It feels a bit like summer has begun here as well- it’s gotten hot out and that seems to be the cue. I love your idea of being employed on the outside only. I, too, have had jobs where it felt like all the life in me was gone at the end of the day. I am very excited for this new plan- I’ll give it a try along with you! xo


    • Thanks, Caroline ~ I much prefer the parts of myself I bring to teaching than the parts I have to summon to be a super organised administrator. Most of all, though, I like the parts of me I bring to writing! Hope you have a fabulously and lazily productive summer 💜


Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back...

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s